I had to meet her in that place...

    They say writing is therapeutic and I couldn't agree more. You can use art to release, but what if writing to release is a form of art as well?

   Writing to release. This is the act of "free hand writing" every thought and emotion that pops into your head over a certain amount of time. No emotion or thought has to be finished in order to jump to the next because this is not how our mind works. The goal is to take our exact train of thought over time and bring it into the physical world. There are so many things our brain flies through or circles around in the span of a minute. Write it down.  For my creative exercise I chose to write everything that went through my head for five minutes.

   What I learned: I learned just how bad my anxiety really is, I learned how organized and disorganized my train of thought was, I remembered some things that I hadn't ever forgotten about in the first place that hurt me deeply, I caught myself slipping and coming back over and over for the very first time, but the most important thing was that I met myself  in an intimate place of understanding for the first time. I felt bad for her. I felt fear for her and for myself. I realized that a lot of her time and mind was still strapped to the past. I knew I hurt, but maybe to know the true extent of what still lingers when I'm not listening...I had to meet her in that place.